https://mail.abyssalstar.blue/ 2026-04-18T10:36:21+00:00 https://mail.abyssalstar.blue/ https://mail.abyssalstar.blue/lib/exe/fetch.php?media=wiki:logo.png text/html 2026-01-11T16:36:22+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://mail.abyssalstar.blue/doku.php?id=2026posts:2026_journal:2026-01-01_realization&rev=1768149382&do=diff It took Xylia entire year to realized Xylia actually hate her/himself. Trying to keep moving forward and be workaholic is just way to get dopamine and be 'productive' hence not have to stay still and finally look at what is trying to catching up. Xylia doesn't recognized that thinking she is undeserving of people attention, love, money or kindness is a form of self hate. Not to mention thinking that she has not suffer or work hard enough to earn any of it or a right to ask for it and other shou…